Wednesday, March 12, 2008

David's Heart Repair


The above image is the closure device in David's heart.

MAIN STORY:

The heart repair went well, and David is recovering well. We were very impressed with all those who were working with us yesterday - from nursing student who asked permission to observe to aids to nurses to technicians to surgeons.

We found there were also a lot of surprises in store for us though. We had been told for months that David has an ASD (and possibly another hole) and that we were going to Sacramento to have the one hole they knew about closed, while at the same time looking for others. Yet one of the first things the surgeon said when he came in to talk with us before the repair was, "David, you are a conundrum! Even though I've never met you your ears must have been burning, because I've been talking about you since November. I don't think you have an ASD (um - this was the first time we'd heard that, and we were there for the purpose of having his ASD closed!!!). I thought I saw a VSD in one of the tests, but the rest of the tests did not bear that out." He went on to give us a long list of things it could be and said he wanted to spend about two hours testing David - via catheterization - to see what was actually going on, since it was not yet clear to him, and all the tests he'd been reading he'd been reading from a distance. That was all a bit confusing to us, but it was immediately clear that this surgeon was extremely good at what he did, and we felt very confident in his care.

(He'd also had a couple of chest x-rays, an EKG, and an echo when he first arrived. I was there when the technician was doing the echo, and she could not find a hole - but when we talked with the surgeon, he said, "We have a phrase: 'echo-schmecho.'")

They went in, did a lot of looking around, put catheters up both legs, did find a large hole - a centimeter in diameter - which was a bit of a surprise to the surgeon. He later told us they were happy to find they had a closure device large enough on hand of the specific type he wanted to use for what he found (which was something other than what he'd expected to find). Although David was out of it for the first couple of hours of the procedure (while they were testing) he regained his alertness during the time that they were putting the device in. He was not in pain, and they allowed him to remain alert and watch what was going on. He found it very interesting to watch the process of inserting the catheter through the hole, making a twist which made the one side of the device pop open kind of like an umbrella, giving a few tugs on the catheter to make sure it was secure, twisting again to make the portion on the other side pop open, and then twist again to release the catheter from the closure device.

We are still not clear on whether it was an ASD or a PFO that they found. When the doctors came to report to me they said he had a PFO. When I said, "Oh, so it wasn't an ASD?" One of them said, "Well, ASD/PFO." I thought it had to be one or the other . . . so I'm not sure whether his comment to me meant that they were so similar that it didn't matter what we called it or if he meant it was some sort of hybrid between the two. Whatever it is, it is successfully closed now. They are still not sure that that is the only problem with his heart, nor are they sure that that is DEFINITELY what caused his stroke. Regardless of that, this was there and needed to be closed. They'll continue to monitor him over the next weeks and months by doing a series of echocardiograms, and we'll go from there.

We are so pleased - so pleased to be at this point - to have had that go so well! It is certainly an answer to much prayer. I can't help but have a tiny bit of nervousness inside me that this might not be the whole story, but it is just a tiny bit of nervousness. We feel he is in VERY good hands - not only those of the doctors but also, of course, the hands of the Great Physician our Heavenly Father - Who created David's body before his birth (Psalm 139) and knows him inside and out better than any test can show. We trust that He is sovereign and that He has ordained all of David's days for him from before David's birth.


ADDITIONAL DETAILS:
These last couple of days have really been quite an experience for us. It seems like we've been gone for a week rather than just two days!!

David is such a sweetie! Unbeknownst to me he looked up one of my favorite restaurants on the internet the night before we left so he could find one on the way up to Sacramento so that we could have a nice meal together before the big day. How sweet of him to be thinking of doing something special for me as he was anticipating going in for this heart repair. When we were at the hospital, once they finally let me in to see him again after his prep, he told me he was praying for me, for my peace. After they gave him his initial meds, which included a valium to relax him beforehand, he asked me if they had given me one too since I must be nervous! :-)

(On that last bit, I'm not sure if he was serious or joking or what, because I think the valium was already working on him!)

Here he was facing unknown findings and outcomes but thinking of me throughout.

I realized all over again that I should have internalized what I had learned from his earlier hospitalization, "I'll believe it when I see it." So much of what happened yesterday did not happen in the way we had expected it - which is certainly fine as all turned out well.

We were scheduled to meet with his surgeon at 7am, and the repair was scheduled for 9am. We'd been told he had an ASD that was going to be closed. We'd been told he'd be staying overnight. Those were the expectations we went in with.

We arrived at 6:50am. There was no talk of an appointment. They just kicked me out while they started prepping him, which I thought would take about 10 minutes but took about an hour. We had not yet met his surgeon and really wanted to at least see him and talk breifly before the surgery! We'd known for months he would be the one working on David, but we'd never seen him nor spoken with him. When they finally called me back in we asked about this, and they said, "Oh, would you like to see the doctor before surgery?" When we said, "yes," they said, "We'll page him to let him know you'd like to meet with him." Hmm . . . we thought that had been the plan all along! That's why we were there at 7 - for the appointment.

When we arrived the nurses spoke as if David would be going home that day. This surprised us, and we told them he's been told he'd be there overnight, which surprised them!

We finally got to see the surgeon. He was fantastic - clearly very knowledgable and also very personable - good bedside manner - nice guy. As noted above, we were extremely surprised by what he had to say and ended up kind of wondering what was up. Why had we been told one thing consistently for months only to travel to Sacramento for a very clear and specific reason but then be told by the surgeon that he wasn't at all sure what was going on and was certainly not convinced it was what we'd been told it was. That was a little unsettling. He'd been in contact with David's cardiologist for months; why hadn't we been given even a hint of this uncertainty? He listed about 5 different things that could actually be wrong with David's heart other than what we'd been told - some of which were hard to determine.

David's situation had already been called "unique" and "complicated" by his cardiologist; now here the surgeon was calling him a "conundrum" - not exactly things you want to hear from your heart specialists!

I'd checked online the night before to see how long to expect the procedure to be (assuming it was a closure) and got information that it would be 2 to 4 hours. We asked the nurses that morning and were told it would take only about an hour. Then, in talking with the surgeon, he said he wanted to spend 2 hours testing (checking O2 levels in the right chambers then checking some things in the left chambers then a third thing) and then, if he found a hole to close that he would be doing that. It ended up taking about 3 1/2 hours. He then had to lie flat on his back for 6 hours, which caused him FAR more discomfort than any aspect of the procedure.

Perhaps I have now internalized the "I'll believe it when it happens" philosophy I had mentioned last fall!

I was surprised at all the blood thinners they gave David during all this (since he'd been told to switch from Coumadin to Lovenox and then get off Lovenox the day before). He was given aspirin, Lovenox, Heparin, and Plavix. Somehow they made a mistake and ended up double dosing him on the Plavix, so he ended up with some bleeding problems. They almost ended up keeping him overnight afterall because of that, as it took some time to get it under control. As it turned out, they did release him at about 8pm, and it was so wonderful to be able to be in our own home last night.

David felt so good at being home that he was up too much that evening - wanting to read to the boys and kiss them goodnight and so on - regular bedtime routine - as well as just wanting to be up after having been on his back all day, but we both learned a lesson as he began bleeding again quite significantly last night. We got that under control, and he is REALLY taking it easy today - staying in the recliner or in bed other than just a few minutes up when necessary.

Although the boys never expressed any worry, it was evident that they were experiencing concern about all this. David shared with me that Jacob has been more "huggy" than usual with him for the last week, and it was really cool to see their eyes light up when Dad came home last night. Their hugs last night were so tender and wonderful. I think part of why David was up more than he should have been last night was not only his own sense of feeling good but also wanting to reassure the boys that all was well and normal in our home.

We are so very pleased to be at this point.

David still has his sights set on running the Sacramento marathon in December. Interestingly, the student nurse we met yesterday is a distance running and is a "pacer" for that marathon. They both agreed they'd be looking for each other in December. If that can happen, what an incredibly happy ending to the story that will be!

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Quick

I'm too tired to write more now, but I just wanted to post that all went well today. There are lots of details, and I'll get those up as soon as I can. Thanks for prayers being said on our behalf!

Sunday, March 09, 2008

The Heart of the Matter

Well, this week we get to the heart of the matter - both figuratively and literally! :-)

Tomorrow (Monday) David and I will head to Sacramento. We meet with his surgeon at 7am Tuesday morning, and his heart repair is scheduled for 9am.

It feels strange to be writing these words as this has been such a long time in coming; I can hardly believe the time is finally here. We've known since mid-November it needed to happen, but David needed 3 or 4 months to recover enough from his stroke before this could be done.

If all goes well David will only have an overnight hospital stay and will have a week of recovery at home.

Tests have shown that there is more going on in David's heart than just the ASD but have not been able to pinpoint what the other issue(s) is(are) - which is why his cardiologist keeps calling his situation "unique" and "complicated" and why he is sending him out of town for surgery. As the doctors are working with him Tuesday they will not only be using the catheter but also a TEE (transesophageal echocardiogram) to get a REALLY good look at what's going on in there, so they're goin' in from top and bottom - and hopefully will get to the bottom of things!!

We continue to be overwhelmed with gratitude for the love and encouragement people have shown us, and we are so thankful for the prayers that are being said for us.

Saturday, March 08, 2008

Runnin' with the Big Boys!

Anthony just ran in his first major high school track meet today. So big, in fact, that a national record was set there today - a 4:04 mile leg of the distance medley. (Anthony's mile time was somewhat slower. :-) The record was set by German Fernandez - a name to watch for in the future.
Anthony ran two events: the 1200 leg of the distance relay and the mile. Here he is getting the baton in the relay. In the next picture he and two of his team mates are checking in with David about their times.
In the next two photos Anthony is getting ready to run his mile - getting directions from the official.
The next two photos show the start and finish of the race. This is one of two heats of the boys frosh/soph mile, and they had so many running in each of the heats that they had to do a "waterfall staggered start with alleys," that's why you see what seem to be two different groups starting in different places at the same time. Notice Anthony's nice stride and strong finish. He definitely ran HIS race and ran it with confidence.
Of course David and I are so proud, and we would be no matter what, but given our own passion for running our enthusiasm is even greater than it might otherwise be. Here are pictures of me and David back in the day on our repsective track teams. Can you pick us out? (You can click to enlarge.)

Thursday, March 06, 2008

Don't!!

"Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, and don't put up with people that are reckless with yours."
-- Kurt Vonnegut (1922-2007)

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

What a Country!

I anticipate the advent of Cadbury Creme Eggs ALL YEAR. The time to celebrate has arrived!! They are finally in stores again!

I can't help but have England come to mind as they have Cadbury Creme Eggs abailable ALL year. What a Country!! That's what I call CIVILIZATION!!! Here I am pictured in Bath outside the Cadbury shop. I've only been to England once, 5 years ago, but for many reasons, including year-round Cadbury Creme Eggs I am eager to go back! Of course the castles and cathedrals and ruins and literary history are cool too!
PS As I scanned this photo I noticed I was holding a bag. Although it was 5 years ago I remember what I bought, because it was a significant purchase at the time. Any guesses? It may help you to know it was late June 2003. It's something everyone was anticipating at that time.
PPS If you click on the picture it will enlarge - thus giving you a better view of the bag - AND of the precious egg. Hey! Don't laugh! I take my chocolate very seriously!

Monday, March 03, 2008

Pet Peeve Coincidence

There are pet peeves that are minor, having to do with things that are annoying but of little consequence. There are pet peeves that are major, having to do with things that can have significant impact. In reading I've done over the last 2 days I have coincidentally come across descriptions of my biggest minor pet peeve and my biggest major pet peeve. They are so well written that I am going to post them, and I'll leave them in the words of others who put them so well.
The minor pet peeve showed up in the letters to the editor, written by Debbie Phippen of Ripon:
"That 'stick' near your steering wheel is called a turn signal. Courteous drivers use it to make a safe lane change or to let other drivers know their intentions if they are waiting for them on a street corner or driveway."
The major pet peeve showed up in All Quiet on the Western Front by Erich Maria Remarque:
"There were thousands of Kantoreks, all of whom were convinced that there was only one way of doing well, and that way theirs.

And that is just why they let us down so badly."

Friday, February 29, 2008

Happy Leap Day!

I would have forgotten that this day was a once in four-year occurance, but I happened to be listening to NPR Science Friday this morning and was quite intrigued by their discussion about time. If you click on NPR Science Friday in the previous sentence it should take you there. It's about 15 minutes long - good stuff.

Thursday, February 28, 2008

There is a new update at the DAVID link at right.

BREAKING NEWS - This just in :-) David's cardiologist just called and wants to move the surgery date up to March 11. David's not home, so I'm not sure if we'll be making this switch. We've been so eager for this to hurry up and happen, but I had my mind wrapped around March 25, so I need to readjust my expectations and timing. I think this will be a really good thing if it can work. Then David's surgery will be done before Easter break, and he'll be able to do part of his recovery over a vacation time - and the boys will be home with him then. David or I will post when we hear more.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Bustin' Out

Spring is bustin' out all over! I've even seen robins in the yard the last two days, so I guess it's official (at least in California ;-).

Although I posted a calla lily earlier, I can't resist another - my favorite!

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

There is an update on DAVID.

Defiant Dutchmen

I had heard this before but wasn't sure if it was fact or fiction, but now that I've seen it in the current issue of Mental_Floss Magazine, I know it really happened this way!
When Napoleon seized the Netherlands in 1810, he demanded that all Dutchmen take last names, just as the French had done decades prior. Problem was, the Dutch had lived full and happy lives with single names, so they took absurd surnames in a show of spirited defiance. These included Naaktgeboren (born naked), Spring int Veld (jump in the field), and Piest (pisses). Sadly for their descendants, Napoleon's last-name trend stuck, and all of these remain perfectly normal Dutch names today.
Whenever I have to sign that little credit card receipt at the grocery story I am reminded of how thankful I am that the Dutchman I marred has only a 5-letter last name. I can't imagine how the Van Zwaluwenbergs and the Vlaardingerbroeks of the world handle that. I also have no idea what those names mean, but it might be interesting to find out!

Monday, February 25, 2008

Birthday Boy

Have a happy 11th birthday, Caleb!!

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Permanent Holiday Spirit

We put up stockings at Christmas just as many other families do, but in our family we have a natural-born "events coordinator," so it doesn't stop there. Caleb's love language is definitely the giving and receiving of gifts (which will probably make some woman very happy some day!). He has instituted the tradition of Valentine's Bags (pictured above), which work pretty much like Christmas stockings. Caleb is ALWAYS in the holiday spirit.

Friday, February 22, 2008

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Seasons

It feels very much like only 2 weeks ago I was still noticing trees with fall color that I was planning to take pictures of for one last look at my favorite season. Time has flown, and spring is here!And here are our new daffodils breaking through.
(Thanks to Amy and Julene :-)

One last look and good-bye to fall.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

DAVID will be posting news on his page soon!

No Time to Hate

I had no time to Hate—
Because
The Grave would hinder Me—
And Life was not so
Ample I
Could finish—Enmity—

Nor had I time to Love—
But since
Some Industry must be—
The little Toil of Love—
I thought
Be large enough for Me—

-- Emily Dickinson (1830-1886)

Monday, February 18, 2008

Quote for Thought (12)

"Men occasionally stumble over the truth, but most of them pick
themselves up and hurry off as if nothing ever happened."


Winston Churchill (1874-1965)

Saturday, February 16, 2008

The Secret

Two girls discover
the secret of life
in a sudden line of
poetry.

I who don't know the
secret wrote
the line. They
told me

(through a third person)
they had found it
but not what it was
not even

what line it was. No doubt
by now, more than a week
later, they have forgotten
the secret,

the line, the name of
the poem. I love them
for finding what
I can't find,

and for loving me
for the line I wrote,
and for forgetting it
so that

a thousand times, till death
finds them, they may
discover it again, in other
lines

in other
happenings. And for
wanting to know it,
for

assuming there is
such a secret, yes,
for that
most of all.

-- Denise Levertov (1923-1997)

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Shepherdess of the White Night

I haven't posted a poem in a while, and this is, afterall, supposed to be "Mostly Poetry!" So a poem is far overdue!

In my current situation, the first four lines of Edna St. Vincent Millay's Nuit Blanche have come to mind. I think the imagery is great, a very nice vignette.

I am the shepherd of those sheep
That climb a wall by night,
One after one, until I sleep,
Or the black pane goes white.

I love that last line because it took a little while to dawn on me (no pun intended)! I used to think the pane going white meant that she had counted SO MANY sheep that they got all piled up so that all she could see out the window was white wool. It was only later that I realized it was night turning to day - dark to light.

Words, especially in the form of poetry are a balm to me. Being able to put a struggle - any struggle - into poetic words somehow helps - doesn't fix the struggle but makes it more bearable somehow.

See DAVID

There is a new post at DAVID's link to the right.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Bumper Sticker Quote



Do not meddle in the affairs of dragons for you are crunchy and taste good with ketchup.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Just a Thought

Just a thought . . .
. . . but if she's REALLY a psychic, why the need to advertise?
Shouldn't she know to call me?

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Compositions in Grey and Green

I love how the world looks after a storm passes, the rain having made the greens more vibrant with the sky still a dark grey.

Saturday, February 09, 2008

See David's Site

I have a new update on David. His spirits, which have been so good throughout, are really low right now. The details are at the DAVID link at the right in the post entitled "vá para trás."

Thursday, February 07, 2008

No Eye Has Seen

This is a composite picture of my great-grandparents - on the left, their wedding picture - on the right, their 65th anniversary picture attempting the same pose. For a number of reasons I'm thinking about time and eternity, and those thoughts brought this picture to mind.

If I were to be handed a jumble of wedding photos and 65th anniversary photos of various couples to sort and match, I don't think I'd be able to identify this couple as being the same two people.

Time is an odd thing. We wake up every day and look in the mirror, and we don't see the change from day to day, but as days compound into years, which then compound into decades the change is profound. That's just part of being temporal creatures - beings that live inside of time and have our lives doled out to us second by second.

Earlier this week a friend and I were talking about Heaven, you see, her dear mother had just passed away Friday. Of the many things we talked about was how we would recognize people in Heaven. I only knew my great-grandparents in their old age, but their parents and grandparents only knew them in their youth. Now that they are in Heaven, outside of time, do they look like they did on the right or on the left or neither or both? Is there some spiritual quality about us aside from our looks that will allow us to recognize each other? My son asked this question years ago when my grandmother passed away, "Will I recognize her in Heaven? But if she looks old like I knew her, then how will her parents recognize her? What do we look like in Heaven?"

We don't know the answer to that question. Our being is so defined by time that we can't imagine what it will be to be outside of it. We can't imagine Heaven, but we do know Heaven will be wonderful - more wonderful even than we have the ability to imagine. As it says in
I Corinthians 2:9:

No eye has seen,
no ear has heard,
no mind has conceived
what God has prepared for those who love him.

To the Lucas family:
"May God comfort you at this time and bring you peace, resting in the truth of I Corinthians 2:9."

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

On the Floor

I found myself on the floor watching this video - not sure whether it was more due to rolling in laughter or collapsing from exhaustion - maybe a little of both. Thanks so much for sending this on Jeff!!

Monday, February 04, 2008

Never Say Never

My kids have known for a long time that they may buy pets when they grow up and move out, but that they can't have one while living here. I realize pets can be an important part of growing up - learning responsibility - being close to nature - and so on, but when I was a child, I became so attached to my pets that I could not stand the grief I experienced when they died. It was overwhelming to me. (Just to put into perspective how much I can't stand it when something dies, I get tears in my eyes when I see a dead animal on the road - any animal, whether it is somebody's pet dog or an opossum. If I find a spider in my house, I don't kill it. I catch it and release it outside. If I can't stand for a spider or opossum to die - how much more so a furry creature I've become attached to?)

Anyway, most Moms who don't want pets don't want the mess or extra work; I'll be honest and admit I don't want the grief. As an adult I have not wanted to have pets I could become attached to and then have to go through that kind of sadness again. So for their lives to date our children had not gotten to have that important developmental experience of having pets - and that was something that was just never going to happen.

Well, never is a long time. Our friends Ross and Jay recently had the boys over and played games with them while David and I had a much needed date night. While there, Caleb fell in love with their pet mice, some of whom they were trying to give away. (They'd bought 2 females, but it turned out one was pregnant when purchased!) The next morning I received an email asking if I would like two mice. I think it was the only weak moment I've ever had with regard to the pet thing. Somehow they caught me at just the right (wrong?) time, and I said "yes."

I said yes?!?!?! I said WHAT??!! Huh?!

So, now we are the proud owners of two mice - Hugin and Munin. The kids have been asking me for a couple of weeks if I've posted pictures on the blog yet - nope - so here they are. Please welcome Hugin and Munin:

I'm already attached, and mice have only a 2 to 3 year life span. :-(

Oh . . . the names . . . our friends are into Norse mythology. Hugin and Munin are the anglicized names of the ravens that sit on the shoulders of Odin, whom he sends out every day to fly over Midgard and bring him the news. The name Hugin means thought, and the name Munin means memory. Here is a beautiful statement of Odin about Thought and Memory:

From Grímnismál:

Old Norse:

Huginn ok Muninn fliúga hverian dag
iörmungrund yfir;
óomk ek of Huginn, at hann aptr ne komit,
þó siámk meirr um Muninn.

English:

The whole world wide, every day,
fly Hugin and Munin;
I worry lest Hugin should fall in flight,
yet more I fear for Munin.

Another translation reads,

Every morning the two ravens Huginn and Muninn, are loosed and fly over Midgard; I always fear that Thought may not wing his way home, but my fear for Memory is greater.

Friday, February 01, 2008

Newsworthy!!

This is my Math 20 class on the news!

I mentioned this in an earlier post entitled "Newsworthy??" (titled thus with question marks since I had no idea what the story was going to be when they came into my classroom with news cameras!).

The story is newsworthy! It has to do with budget cuts in higher education and the impact that is going to have on students and colleges in California. As they show my classroom they talk about how full it is - trying to illustrate how impacted classes are already. This is nothing! They should have been there on day one when nearly all of the 68 enrolled students and nearlly all of the 60 students on the wait list showed up in this room, which has seats for 80 people. It was standing room only! Students were coming up to me begging me to let them in, because they needed this class THIS semester. I added as many students as I could but had to turn many, many students away. Those that were turned away are now a semester behind (or yet another additional semester behind) on their math requirements, and they may get turned away next semester too. This is where things stand now, but this news report explains how much worse things will likely get, so it is newsworthy, impacting many lives.

That is the reason I've chosen to post, but I also thought it was kind of cool to let you see me (if ever so briefly) in my natural habitat. :-)